2:57am Monday

I do not deny it, I am shit scared.

Scared of the familiar loneliness, scared of standing on my own feet.  Scared of going back to my irregular lifestyle, scared of the responsibility of taking care of myself.

I am scared of the dark shadow of the tornado ahead, even more scared that when  it comes and swallows me right up, you will be too far to save me.  

It will come and engulf me in.  I will be swamped but come out whole.